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serenissima) wrote2007-03-21 10:39 pm
serenissima) wrote2007-03-21 10:39 pm
Snowmelt
Equinox, at last. I can't remember if I was more relieved at the arrival of spring last year than this year. I'm tired of Northern winters; the novelty has long since worn off. What with all the freeze-and-thaw-and-freeze-and-thaw weather we've been having, the sound of trickling water has been pretty frequent at my apartment. (Yes, it's all outdoors.)
I've been complaining lately, mostly to myself, about how I'm bored and lonely and having a hard time keeping up with my schoolwork and don't have enough time and my job sucks. The truth is, I've started doing the things I want to do, bit by bit. Graduate school is part of that. I went skiing, after living here for four winters -- I stopped waiting for someone else to go with and just went by myself (well, with a bus full of strangers). I got myself something to leave my neighborhood for: the gaming group has so many events, I could spend all my free time on that if I cared to.
Meetup sends a whole lot of reminder emails, and while cleaning out my email, I came across an invitation to join an RPG from more than two years ago. It was from someone who'd seen on Meetup that I was interested in RPGs. I declined. The place where they were meeting was a half hour drive from my place, and that seemed like a lot to me at the time. Turns out this same person is part of the group I joined this year. I've driven to a place about 40 minutes away three times now for a game.
What's different now? Well, school is a half hour drive from my place -- a full hour coming directly from work -- which makes the "half hour drive" concept seem like a routine thing. Also, two and a half years ago Chris had recently moved in with me, so I didn't have to go anywhere to play D&D. Plus, because of our differing work schedules, we felt like we still didn't see enough of each other. We weren't motivated to go out for entertainment.
I may have mentioned before that I suspect Chris joining up was a catalyst for me. First, he's no longer around to be a focus of my attention. I don't have a reason to hurry home. And second, his example has been an inspiration for me to start shaping my life the way I want it to be.
In any event, I seem to be a little bolder than I was, a little more inclined to just go and do whatever strikes me. I've been growing and stretching without really noticing it. Not the explosive growth of May, but the slow, steady growth of March.
Here's to spring.
I've been complaining lately, mostly to myself, about how I'm bored and lonely and having a hard time keeping up with my schoolwork and don't have enough time and my job sucks. The truth is, I've started doing the things I want to do, bit by bit. Graduate school is part of that. I went skiing, after living here for four winters -- I stopped waiting for someone else to go with and just went by myself (well, with a bus full of strangers). I got myself something to leave my neighborhood for: the gaming group has so many events, I could spend all my free time on that if I cared to.
Meetup sends a whole lot of reminder emails, and while cleaning out my email, I came across an invitation to join an RPG from more than two years ago. It was from someone who'd seen on Meetup that I was interested in RPGs. I declined. The place where they were meeting was a half hour drive from my place, and that seemed like a lot to me at the time. Turns out this same person is part of the group I joined this year. I've driven to a place about 40 minutes away three times now for a game.
What's different now? Well, school is a half hour drive from my place -- a full hour coming directly from work -- which makes the "half hour drive" concept seem like a routine thing. Also, two and a half years ago Chris had recently moved in with me, so I didn't have to go anywhere to play D&D. Plus, because of our differing work schedules, we felt like we still didn't see enough of each other. We weren't motivated to go out for entertainment.
I may have mentioned before that I suspect Chris joining up was a catalyst for me. First, he's no longer around to be a focus of my attention. I don't have a reason to hurry home. And second, his example has been an inspiration for me to start shaping my life the way I want it to be.
In any event, I seem to be a little bolder than I was, a little more inclined to just go and do whatever strikes me. I've been growing and stretching without really noticing it. Not the explosive growth of May, but the slow, steady growth of March.
Here's to spring.