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Independence weekend
Jul. 5th, 2002 07:44 pm[reposted from DiaryLand]
I had a quiet 4th of July. One of my dad's co-workers had a cookout in the afternoon, so the three of us went. My parents didn't feel like going to a fireworks show, though. Too crowded, I guess. I would have liked one. Instead, I read a book by Maria Shriver that reminded me to get my act together -- a message unknowingly reiterated by Chris when he called me this morning.
My biggest fault is a horrible fear of failure. This has at times become a self-fulfulling prophecy, such as when I failed my Spanish class sophomore year. Right now it's keeping me from going out and hunting for interviews as much as I might. I'm scared to talk to people, because I don't know what to say. What if I make them dislike me? Of course, there are rational and logical arguments against this, but they only go so far to prod me to make a phone call or talk to a prospective employer or contact.
I got the email from the cell phone company Monday evening, telling me to call and schedule an interview. I got up around 9 am Tuesday, took a few hours to check what I had previously sent the company and get my nerve up, and called at 2:30. The man was out of his office. I left a message and called again at 3:30. Still no answer. Finally, at 4 I tried again and got through -- and was told the position had been filled. This 21 hours after the email.
I still have plenty of things to investigate, but another of my faults is that I get discouraged easily. And the potential job at the tiny company isn't as good as I first thought.
I had a quiet 4th of July. One of my dad's co-workers had a cookout in the afternoon, so the three of us went. My parents didn't feel like going to a fireworks show, though. Too crowded, I guess. I would have liked one. Instead, I read a book by Maria Shriver that reminded me to get my act together -- a message unknowingly reiterated by Chris when he called me this morning.
My biggest fault is a horrible fear of failure. This has at times become a self-fulfulling prophecy, such as when I failed my Spanish class sophomore year. Right now it's keeping me from going out and hunting for interviews as much as I might. I'm scared to talk to people, because I don't know what to say. What if I make them dislike me? Of course, there are rational and logical arguments against this, but they only go so far to prod me to make a phone call or talk to a prospective employer or contact.
I got the email from the cell phone company Monday evening, telling me to call and schedule an interview. I got up around 9 am Tuesday, took a few hours to check what I had previously sent the company and get my nerve up, and called at 2:30. The man was out of his office. I left a message and called again at 3:30. Still no answer. Finally, at 4 I tried again and got through -- and was told the position had been filled. This 21 hours after the email.
I still have plenty of things to investigate, but another of my faults is that I get discouraged easily. And the potential job at the tiny company isn't as good as I first thought.